OMGosh! Today I am so sore I am almost miserable! I was sore after workout #4, but just a little, but today I am sore from the bottom of my feet to the top of my head...OK, maybe not the bottom of my feet or the, actual, top of my head, but you get my point!
I am sad to admit that yesterday was the first time that I told the trainer that "I can't do this". The workout was good, but there was one that I just could not do hardly. It was what he called "Walk Outs". It is where you get into a squat and then walk out on your hands to stretch out your torso. My legs kept wanting to give out on me. He was saying that it was actually my arms and legs because I was one hand dead lifting a 45lb Kettle Bell. Whatever the reason, I apologized later and told him I must have my whiny pants on today and next time I will try to leave them at home! LOL He chuckled a little, but I know he did not know exactly what I meant because he cannot feel what I was feeling in myself. *sigh* I am not trying to be perfect, however, I want to go there, work, lose weight, gain strength, look and feel better, and have a new confidence in myself... yesterday, I was not a pillar of who I want to be! However, thank you Lord, I have more days ahead to work on that!!
Overall, aside from the workout, was an awesome day!!! I was under on my calories, I burned over 2000 calories so I was down almost 1000 calories for the day! That was 1/3 of a pound!! Of course, today, I am struggling, but am working through trying not to make it a total loss! I have at least burned the calories that I have eaten!
I am loving my new Fitbit. It keeps track of my calories that I burn, steps taken, flights of stairs climbed, distance, and activity level. I actually received an email with a nice recap of my first week using it. The whole week added together in a one sheet document. Very nice! Something that I can take into the trainer and show off. The only thing that I don't like is that when you are weight training it does not detect your movements...so I just think of that as gravy in terms of calories burned.
This week I am going to make it a great week in my quest for a smaller middle! I have a new outlook on life and I am trying my darnedest not to let someone steal this away from me. It is hard! I feel guilty, however, I need to lose this weight for me, myself and I and our self esteem. Ever since I started gaining weight at the age of 21 (started drinking and gained slowly, got married gained some more, had my first child and my fat and body must have fallen in love) my self esteem just went down the drain. I am better than what I am living. I can do much more and be much more than I am doing. I will provide my children with a good role model on living a full life, with God, and staying true to yourself.
I read a great quote yesterday that sums up my self esteem right now...
I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be, but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see!
That quote is totally me! I AM so much more than what they see...and NOW they need to see it!! As I get closer to that goal..world...WATCH OUT!! :)
Until less time...
I am sad to admit that yesterday was the first time that I told the trainer that "I can't do this". The workout was good, but there was one that I just could not do hardly. It was what he called "Walk Outs". It is where you get into a squat and then walk out on your hands to stretch out your torso. My legs kept wanting to give out on me. He was saying that it was actually my arms and legs because I was one hand dead lifting a 45lb Kettle Bell. Whatever the reason, I apologized later and told him I must have my whiny pants on today and next time I will try to leave them at home! LOL He chuckled a little, but I know he did not know exactly what I meant because he cannot feel what I was feeling in myself. *sigh* I am not trying to be perfect, however, I want to go there, work, lose weight, gain strength, look and feel better, and have a new confidence in myself... yesterday, I was not a pillar of who I want to be! However, thank you Lord, I have more days ahead to work on that!!
Overall, aside from the workout, was an awesome day!!! I was under on my calories, I burned over 2000 calories so I was down almost 1000 calories for the day! That was 1/3 of a pound!! Of course, today, I am struggling, but am working through trying not to make it a total loss! I have at least burned the calories that I have eaten!
I am loving my new Fitbit. It keeps track of my calories that I burn, steps taken, flights of stairs climbed, distance, and activity level. I actually received an email with a nice recap of my first week using it. The whole week added together in a one sheet document. Very nice! Something that I can take into the trainer and show off. The only thing that I don't like is that when you are weight training it does not detect your movements...so I just think of that as gravy in terms of calories burned.
This week I am going to make it a great week in my quest for a smaller middle! I have a new outlook on life and I am trying my darnedest not to let someone steal this away from me. It is hard! I feel guilty, however, I need to lose this weight for me, myself and I and our self esteem. Ever since I started gaining weight at the age of 21 (started drinking and gained slowly, got married gained some more, had my first child and my fat and body must have fallen in love) my self esteem just went down the drain. I am better than what I am living. I can do much more and be much more than I am doing. I will provide my children with a good role model on living a full life, with God, and staying true to yourself.
I read a great quote yesterday that sums up my self esteem right now...
I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be, but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see!
That quote is totally me! I AM so much more than what they see...and NOW they need to see it!! As I get closer to that goal..world...WATCH OUT!! :)
Until less time...
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